A Feeling of Guilt and an Apology Gift

so its been a while since my last journal, and also my activities here in dA

I hate giving hope of something i started to think i won't be able to do, fixing Border Skin bugs and updating it to a newer versions, my development seems to be very slow, don't get me wronge i adore Border Skin, it was and still my first to be published project, gave me a boast in the computer field in general i wouldn't dream of, but its complexity and size as a project to achieve something deep down in myself i know it can't be as good as the original, and to be developed mainly for one operating system, i don't know, maybe that's why i am developing it that slow, and add all that to the feeling of guilt really depressed me

but my really main considered reason is this new project, to compete with a shareware with no other freeware available to support the three windows systems together, to provide an alternative in a very wanted customization category is a very attractive challenge, and challenge is my love, most of my coding time is spent on this new software, the rest for Border Skin

since my main concern is for my users, i considered opening source Border Skin and make it available for another developer to develop, but i feel i am not ready for this, i know i know, not ready, what the hell that is suppose to mean, but i really don't know

I just don't want to be a kind of person that leaves something old i love for something new i also love, and to not to mention disappoint lots of people after giving them hope, i am just really distracted

so, what do u think guys ?? i really need some advice over here

anyway as an apology gift, i present u an early screen shot of this new project, which really clears what is about, i know that it is absolutely wrong to publish such photo in a very early stage, but anything for my friends and users

i183.photobucket.com/albums/x2…